Goodbye to our Summer

Goodbye to our Summer

September 10th, 2017…a hard day for our family. This is our precious furbaby, Summer. I had just arrived from a week away at my first doTERRA convention and as soon as I saw her I knew something was terribly wrong. Her big brown eyes were asking for help and she was panting. Dan threw her in the car and took her to the emergency vet. While there they found she has a liver tumor that had ruptured and she didn’t have long. I grabbed the kids and my bottle of serenity and went to say our last goodbyes.

I remember grabbing the Serenity oil bottle and feeling a little foolish. How could anything help her at this point? But I trusted my instincts and threw it in my purse.

When we arrived and I saw my sweet girl it was clear she was uncomfortable, breathing heavily and restless. I grabbed the bottle and applied some to my hands and rubbed her all over while saying goodbye. Her breathing immediately calmed and she was able to lay her head down and rest. This was my last gift to her and I am so grateful I had something to make her transition easier.

One of the many reasons I love Serenity 💗

Gifts

Gifts

In loving memory of Kirsten, Steve, and Kim. Thank you for helping me find my gift.

As a Christian I have taken a lot of “spiritual gift” surveys over the years. Healing, mercy, helps, and faith usually show up. Recently, I have been thinking about the good and hard parts of these gifts. You see, I have an ease and comfort with some REALLY hard things. Like death and grief. I can sit with someone else’s pain for a long time. I can walk with people through the hardest crap life has thrown at them. Is it easy for me? No way. Does it rip my heart out? Absolutely. Do I find pleasure in the suffering? Of course not. But I am good at it, like really good. I can compartmentalize my own fear and sadness to support others. I can process my own grief and sorrow, and create space for others to do the same. I just seem to know what people need, innately know whether they need a hug, or tough love, or silence. When I am in that zone it is a truly spiritual experience. I know I am walking in my purpose. I know it is what God wants me to do. But then comes the hard… The sadness sets in, it all feels too much, everything feels heavy. And then I wonder why God would want my gifts to carry so much hard. Thank goodness for my gift of faith, for that is what really pulls me through those times.

I hope you all can find your gifts, even if they carry some hard. The world needs you, all of you. Have you found your gifts?